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What is my deep down underlying problem…Why do I keep starting over and over and over again…Why can’t I stick to it, why do I fall off track to the point where I don’t care at all?? Why do I let the stress of work, finances, bills, and my weight get me to the point that I don’t give a damn enough to gain so much weight…

 Can I stick with it this time…Do I put too much pressure on myself everytime that I just give up?? I have plenty of support, but I quit…

 How else can I find a way to be held accountable for this…How do I ever expect to get pregnant and have a healthy pregnancy if I don’t get this weight off??

 Why do I always resort to self sabotage??? Do I not truly love myself deep down enough to take care of myself??

 I need to embark on a journey to answer these questions and get healthy…2009 is a new year, a new year to take care of myself and love myself and not let the stresses of things that are out of my control get to me…

2009 is going to be about reaching and maintaining that goal!! It may take me the rest of my life to work at it and get healthy and taking the extra effort not to fall back into old habbits…But today is the day to say Goodbye to 2008 and look forward to a healthier future.